A milestone has been made!

I got my first real job. I work at Walmart as a seasonal cashier and it sucks. Because I haven't got a clue as to what I'm doing.

Ha.

I hate waiting...

I'm 23 years young as of August 27th.
I have an interview with BVR on the 21st. (It's a place that helps those who have mental problems whether it be emotionally, etc, find jobs) I'm stoked!
Went to my best friends birthday party this past weekend. It was Hannah Montana themed. Yes, we're awesome. No need for jealousy.
I have an obsession for Facebook. It's bad, lol.

Oh, yeah and . .

Kayne West is a douche.

I went to the BVR appointment and it went okay. I can't think under pressure, obviously, though... haha. I don't think I'll make it into their program. As all the questions the lady asked were dependent questions and I could do them all, besides the social situations.

I don't have any money for my birth control, which is $9/pop. I haven't been taking my anti-depressants because I can't afford those either. And honestly, I'm lazy. I felt the wrath of not taking them a week ago. I had a mental breakdown. If mental hospitals were free I would be sitting in one.

I'm going to the Welfare office to see if I can get some kind of assistance until I find a job. I'm going to tell them, that I hate my life and everything in it, pretty much. That I wish I wasn't here. Because plain and simple, that's how I feel.

I'm so sick of drama. I'm so sick of people and their poor health situations. I'm so sick of not accomplishing anything. There is totally something wrong with me and it's ANNOYING.

10 days until my 23rd birthday. Woo.

Well, I am back but who knows for how long. I have been home for like a week from babysitting because the girl I was babysitting for got fired. A whole bunch of crap happened and I honestly don't want to go back to babysitting, anyway. That's not a real job.

I am supposed to be going to this BVR thing in Canton some time hopefully soon. I don't know if it's for someone like me, though? I'm going to be tested to see if I am slow. I do however suffer from depression and social phobia, but I doubt that counts unfortunately. That's like my only hope.

I'm supposed to have an appointment tomorrow with Dr.G and my counselor. The Dr. appointment got canceled because I haven't been doing like I'm supposed to. Which is applying Vaniqua to my face rwice daily like I'm supposed to.

Nothing else has been going on, besides lots of boredom and facebook addiction!

I'm home until Sunday. Yippy?

Happy 4th of July!

I have been home since Friday and although, I have mainly been bored since I have been home.. I am so relaxed. My house is such a better atmosphere to relax in compared to where I babysit at.

I had to pay $80 for my mom's overdraft fee yesterday, she's not too smart. Last month she ran up the Alltel bill and it came to $500.

I'm finally getting paid to babysit. Only not by the original person I'm babysitting for. I'm being paid by her brother, because I'm watching his kid and so far he has paid be daily. I have a fear that his sister will screw things up for me, because she bitches and yells way too much. And the boy I'm watching isn't used to that kind of atmosphere, I guess. He has already went back and told his grandma a few things that have went on there. I just hope he says nothing about me, because I have been nothing but good to the boy. I don't even think I have raised my voice at him.

I don't want Monday to come, because that means I go back to babysitting. I should of quit a few months back when she went to Nickel's and filled out an application, when I was the one who told her they were hiring. When I took myself to the Employment Source to find out who had what. Bitch.
Everyone thinks I will never get paid, as she owes lot rent like $700. I think I'm done after the summer. I will see how things go. If I don't get paid by the summer time, like around my birthday I am quitting. I'm not going to cower like a little bitch anymore.

I have been away from home for like a month or so and I just came back yesterday! Unfortunately, I am only here until tomorrow. Then it's back to the crazy zoo where I babysit for basically free. Ugh. It would be okay, but I got bills. Just because they want to be irresponsible doesnt mean I want to. I am going to try and look for a different job as I have time. Because I cannot do this.

I got my Vaniqa or whatever its spelt. Its super expensive when not insured. Its $56 and it's supposed to be a 6 month trial.

I'm dating someone from Youngstown but I don't think it will last. I find too many things wrong with everything.

IDK, not much to say. :/

I have not been around in the longest because i could not figure out how to do the mobile thing and had no other way to post. this is dumb when i cant even read what ya'll say!

I should be going back to full time babysitting next week. Yay... or not. I need a real job!

My dad is going to allow me to get this cream for my hair issue. Well, depending on the size of the container or whatever. The ladies said it cost $70... but that could be big or small.

I'm so addicted to Mafia Wars! I have it on Tagged and Facebook! I won't add it to Myspace, because I added Yoville on there and didn't like the setup of it.. so I deleted it. No more trying to use apps on there.